Monday, January 21, 2013

What Manner Of Dream Is This?

I had a dream.

Feels kinda weird, waking up on Martin Luther King Day, celebrating a guy whose dreams came to pass, while praying fervently that the dream I had does not come to pass. What manner of confusion is this???!! Sometimes I remember my dreams, sometimes I don't. This particular one, I remember very vividly and it scares me.

In the dream, I was pregnant and I went for an ultrasound that showed I was expecting twins. A boy and a girl. I wasn't upset, like I would be in real life if I found out that I was pregnant now. I was smiling and rubbing my huge round tummy, excited about it all and making a joke about how I said I didn't want any more kids and God laughed at me and gave me two.

I'm not smiling at all right now!!
This is not a joking matter and I need to put it out there, so the universe hears me! 

I DON"T WANT ANY MORE BABIES! PLEASE!!

If you like, laugh at me. God is watching you in 3D. 
I want all those babies for everyone who is believing God for children, just not for me. I'm done!

Babies are great. I consider my children to be my biggest blessings and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I often think about how different my life would be without the responsibility of caring for Nathan, Alexis and David, and every single time, the organized chaos that my life has become wins. Everything I have had to give up pales in comparison to these blessings, especially because money cannot buy them. They are gifts and I consider myself privileged to be a co-creator with God, birthing not just one or two, but three amazing and beautiful children.
It gets overwhelming sometimes a lot of the time. I often think about renting them out, or donating them to charity, just so I can catch a break. They are my greatest stressors, simultaneously delighting and bugging my life. Just when I think they are settled in for the night and we can finally get some Daddy and Mummy time, one of them cries/ wants a drink of water/ has a tummy ache/ can't sleep/ wants a hug/ comes up with some other random reason to remind us that they run things in our home. One time, we had put them to bed and were watching a movie downstairs. Imagine my surprise, finding Alexis fast asleep on the stairs on my way to bed at midnight. I quickly took a picture before I carried her back to her bed. I have proof if she attempts to deny in future and you all are my witnesses :)
 I am convinced that they work for some top secret government agency as "Anti-Intimacy Agents"! Their sensors are CIA grade and I have nicknamed them Fire Extinguishers cos they stay trying to put out the fire of my love life. Try as they may, I shangree! God is on my side and I shall overcome! Did I hear you say AMEN?! Thank you jare! God bless you! ;)

There may be some Superhero mums who never get exhausted, are always smiling as they change diapers and are perfectly satisfied with their non-existent sex lives, but I am not one of them. I used to feel guilty about the negative emotions that I felt and I would never even admit them. I'm so over that. I've learned to acknowledge that those emotions are legitimate and they do not make me a bad mum. They make me human.

I've done my part of that "Be fruitful and multiply" scripture. I'm on the "Have dominion" part right now. Tonight, I'm dreaming another dream. There ain't no pregnancy making it into that one for sure! Amen!

Thanks for coming by again and again.
May your dreams come true!
xxx

40 comments:

  1. Aah Gbemi, congrats in advance!!! As ur bday mate with some thgs in common I hardly recall my dreams and when I do , they come true! Reminds me of my friend who had 3kids thot she was done and later finds hersef preg with twins. Her bb display message became 'blessed r thou amongst women...' God give me the strength to do number 3 oh!!!

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  2. lol,I enjoyed reading your post!

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  3. The munchkins ooooooo... so so adorable, you can rent them to me for the summer. LWKMD @ "Anti-Intimacy Agents"... NA u biko..

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    1. Rental? Let's make this happen. i know you'll feed tham fat. The only caveat is that you can't return them if they start to show you pepper oh!
      Deal?
      Lol

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  4. lool.... I strongly agree with Demi... hahahaha, it will happen and we will join in and celebrate.. Dancing azonto remix already.. jokes.

    God will give you the strength. The twins might not be now maybe the near future. lol oo. You are so giving me bad looks right now..

    I guess I can talk am not walking your shoes. But hehe, I am taking cue oo. xxxx

    Nice post.

    I love them.. so cute and adorable. haha

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    1. The bad looks ehn?! I'm sure you can feel them all the way from here. LOL

      The only twins I'm having are the multiple manifestations of my purpose on earth. My ministry is two pronged! That is the meaning of the dream. Thank you very very much!!! ;)

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    2. lol, nice interpretation! I still prefer the real twin babies though...

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  5. They look so cute. love the pictures.

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    1. Thanks dear!
      Happy belated birthday!

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  6. This post is funny much! lol
    First, its the " I often think about renting them out, or donating them to charity" part that cracked me up and then, "I've done my part of that "Be fruitful and multiply" scripture. I'm on the "Have dominion" part right now". lol

    That baby is so cute mehn! I mean the way she slept on the stairs. lol

    Every time I say I love babies, I have a sister that always reply, "wait till you have your own" lol

    - LDP

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    1. Thanks LDP.

      I agree with your sister. I know it's soon :)

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  7. Really so funny,I just kept laughing while reading
    (& imagine I'm in d office*Abeg o! make my Oga no catch me o!*).
    I love the dream since u don't want there's love in sharing. Send d twins 2me, Cos I'll be glad 2hav them (I'm not joking o!). As u hav done ur part of the "Be fruitful and multiply" scripture. & u're on the "Have dominion" part right now".
    I'm still on the "Be fruitful and multiply" part. LOL...

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    1. Hahaha. Faith oh. I will gladly pray the twins your way!
      Be fruitful! it is your season!

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  8. Alexis looks so adorable in that picture on the stairs. kids are blessings my dear so no worry when the twins pregnancy come o! lol. lovely post.

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    1. Thanks Priscy!
      Which twins pregnancy? The on you're having abi?! Oh, okay. I will gladly come and babysit for you! Lol

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  9. lol! pele i feel your pain...i reject that dream for you in Jesus name o!

    i have just one and i feel like a maniac sometimes... i wonder how i will cope when number 2 comes along.


    bionic has done the staircase sleep before..think i got a photo too

    God bless all mothers and mothers to be.

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    1. Who knows, maybe they planned the staircase sleep when they met in Essex two summers ago.
      Bionic is all grown up, so she'll help you when number 2 (and 3,4,5)arrive. *dodges shoe

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    2. Shuo! Gbemi is this life? I rejected twins for u and u are mentioning 3, 4, 5. Ni Gba na BACK TO SENDER!!!!
      Lol

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    3. Hahaha. See me dodging shoe!
      I should have put on the whole amour of God as my bulletproof. Lol
      Abeg, Aloted, no vex! Na play I dey play o! ;)

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  10. Amen! God bless all mothers.
    So funny! Love the way you write..
    And thanks for your honesty as well.. Some people may feel bad about expressing themselves but it's good for we 'learners' to know and be informed oh so that we can gird ourselves appropriately!

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    1. Amen! Thank you. There's nothing to feel bad about. We are human and God's grace abounds towards us :)

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  11. hehe I had a good laugh at this...God bless you for your hard work though and the kids keep getting more adorable by the days

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    1. Thanks YSU
      Amen! They really are adorable.

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  12. Lol. May your dreams not come through in Jesus name

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    1. AMEN!!
      See how context changes the meaning of prayers? A few years ago and I would've been fuming, asking, "what kind of prayer is thi?"

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  13. I can really relate with your fear for more children, I have 2 and when I see people who have more, I always praise them and wonder how they cope. Dreaming that you had twins might not translate directly to giving birth to twins,this might be the birth of ideas or projects or even growth. It might also symbolize the fear of new responsibilities cos it has registered in your subconscious.

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    1. Yes oh!
      You're in The Spirit. Multiple ideas and projects for sure.
      Thanks dear! :)

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  14. hahahaahah, i totally feel you on wanting to send the kids away for a day or 2. Being a mother totally changes your schedule. i used to console myself that once the kids get to maybe 9 or 10, i would regain my sanity but i have just been reliably informed by mothers with older kids that thats when the real work is just beginning.hahahahah

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    1. I have heard that too.
      It doesn't get easier per se, a mother's role just changes. At first, we are changing diapers, but in no time, we are teaching them to read, and before you know it, they hit puberty and you're helping them navigate the minefield of relationships with the opposite sex.
      Then they get married and you become a grandma!
      Phew!

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  15. Please Gbemi, direct this dream to me. I so much need it. i promise to testify to the goodness of God on your blog when the twins come along! Please join a sister in prayers.

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    1. Aww Wunmi...
      I just said a prayer for you. I asked God to grant you an "exceeding abundantly above" kind of miracle. I trust Him to bring His word to pass in your life in Jesus name.
      Hugs :)

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  16. Hahahaha very funny! I can only imagine how you feel.

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  17. I cant get over Alexis being Gbenisoke jnr. Soo cute. So she was tired to carry herself back to bed or she was sneaking down to disturb mommy and daddy and sleep overtook her? lol

    Naa, I am a prophetess..you are about to birth some success. not necessarily a child. Oya claim it in Jesus name....

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  18. Just laughing, laughing, laughing,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I can't stop...............oh Gbemi! I claim the twins for you on your behalf o! A-M-I-N! *dodge thrown object*

    Oh! What more can I say?...you crossed the t's and dotted the i.

    p.s but shoot one more goal now, so that it can be a round even number..*dodge again*...ahahahahaha

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  19. I enjoyed reading this piece. I am a mother of 4, and I so identify with your rejection of that dream. I took mine a step further to ensure no surprises and did a tubal ligation o after my retirement baby no 4. Hahahahahahahaha.

    I laughed so hard when I read this part: "I am convinced that they work for some top secret government agency as "Anti-Intimacy Agents"! Their sensors are CIA grade and I have nicknamed them Fire Extinguishers cos they stay trying to put out the fire of my love life. Try as they may, I shangree! God is on my side and I shall overcome! Did I hear you say AMEN?! Thank you jare! God bless you!"
    Thanks for sharing. Really nice one.

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  20. I laughed hard thru out this post. OMG. I totally can relate. I am done, done and done with havIng more of my own. I am by the way open to adopting in the future, on the condition that the child is past potty training age. Yeah you get the picture, I'm done with diapers. LOL

    I love my children and they are such a blessing to us but its time to enjoy our family as a whole.

    Gbemi, thanks for making me laugh so hard!! You rock girl! You are not alone and most mom if they are honest will totally agree with you. I wish you would do a Vblog on this - you are one funny Sis.

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  21. I guess God wouldn't give you more than you can handle, not that I am supporting your dream or praying for it to come through butttt if you have more children I guess you will also get the supernatural strength and love to look after them lol. Your dream might also mean that great things are coming your way, it might not be children maybe somethingthat will add even more beauty to your life and home. Lol I don't know o, I am only saying lol.

    I like your blog x

    www.spynaija.blogspot.com

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